The Jukebox in my Head Vs. Meditation

Day 186

Photo by Patrick Fore on Unsplash

My appreciation for music is fairly far reaching, although I will admit that my tolerance for some ‘music’ gets lower as I get older.

This morning was a meditation fail. I woke up at 2:50 a.m. and could not go back to sleep. At 4:00 a.m. I decided I might as well sit up and meditate. Of course, in less than five minutes I was fast asleep. I awoke after 8:00 a.m. in a full frenzy because I have a lot on my plate today. So, for the first morning since I started, I made the decision to forgo my meditation.

The result was I started my day with the brain chatter that meditation normally quells. I was not feeling awake, spilled my coffee all over the kitchen counter and have just felt off. Lack of sleep or lack of meditation or a combination of both have left me with a feeling of minor chaos. At least I recognize it, right?

All my underlying thoughts usually get cleared during meditation. I see them, acknowledge them and then they pass. Unfortunately I am now wrestling with them which is an unwelcome feeling after a week of peaceful morning starts.

The jukebox in my head is running full steam. Right now it’s The Guess Who performing “No Sugar Tonight/New Mother Nature”. The Guess Who was the first band I saw in concert so I love their music. I love their sound, but this one is a bit of an oddity in the lyrics. So, my chaotic mind decided to see what Wikipedia had to say. It’s a bit of a long but interesting story. I will leave it to you to read if it piques your interest. Now the song makes a bit more sense to me. We lyric people care about such things.


Oops – sorry. New Song!


Note to self: Never forgo meditation.