My Nation’s Broken Heart – A Tough Read

I rarely feel the need to start my post with a disclaimer, but this one has been boiling inside me for days now and I am giving fair warning it may have unbridled thoughts, triggers, and stress inducing ideas. Read at your own risk.

Friday I decided to get my second COVID booster in preparation for attending my granddaughter’s high school graduation in Charleston. I was fortunate to experience very few side effects.

We had a great weekend. We started at the newly built Farmer’s Market where my husband played music with a small local group of musicians. Our daughter and his family came to see him play. We had a nice visit and they all went to lunch while I went to to ice my knee.

Saturday night we had a lovely dinner with our friends out on their deck. Their house is nestled in a beautiful clearing and is as peaceful as you can imagine. It was one of those rare nights of friendship and easy conversation surrounded by nature’s best.

Sunday my niece and her family came out for lunch (we had not seen them since the pandemic began). It was a lovely visit full of good food, catching up and lots of laughter. A much needed reunion.

Monday was a quiet day, my husband out and about with our potter friend.

Tuesday night was our four-year-old granddaughter’s graduation from pre-kindergarten in Florida. It was during her graduation ceremony the news started to trickle in about the school shooting in Texas. Suddenly, the world seemed to stop, just as the lives of more innocent people slipped away like their blood leaving their bodies.

I cannot get the mental images out of my mind. Children locked in a room with a mad man – watching their peers get shot and killed one by one. I cannot get the expressions of fear on their tiny faces out of my mind. Did they scream out for their parents? Parents that could do nothing to save them? Did they plead with a terrorist not to kill them? Did they expect a good guy with a gun would save them? And now, there are accusations that those who could have helped did not take the risks to save these innocent children. I know their parents have those same images in their minds, except they are the faces of their own beloved children, dying alone, terrified and calling for their parents in vain.

I don’t care how many arguments you try to state to the contrary, our lawmakers have blood on their hands. With each horrific shooting in this country, the blood gets thicker and stickier. They may as well have been holding those guns themselves. They sit deep within the pockets of the NRA and the gun manufacturers who continue to make money hand over fist selling weapon grade guns to anyone with money. It makes me sick to my stomach.

These legislators are the same ones who cowered in fear when armed terrorist surrounded them during the insurrection. And those people who terrorized the capital are the same ones that want their gun rights protected – all at the expense of the citizens in this country who try to abide by the law. They feel nothing when innocent children are killed for no reason. And citizens of color targeted and killed while simply shopping at a grocery store or people choosing to practice their faith. None of them had security to rustle them off to a safe holding area. They died in terror.

I cannot help but think about the parents. Do they shut the door to their child’s bedroom, or do they sit on the edge of their bed, or sit on the floor among their toys sobbing uncontrollably. Or what of the sibling who shared a room with their brother or sister who will never again whisper good night after the lights are turned off, looking forward to the days to follow.

I am tired of the memes that are posted all over social media. People post to show their concern – everyone is at a loss as to what to do. I knew I could never write another lighthearted post until I got this out of my system. I have donated money to organizations fighting for gun control. I am seeking out every hardworking organization fighting for gun control that I can join, sign petitions, or support, but it is not enough. It will never be enough until children can feel safe going to school. Until we all feel safe just living withing our communities.

And to my fellow bloggers who live in countries with gun control, I know you look on our country with disdain because we do not have gun control. We look on with disdain as well, but we need your support and empathy – not for our legislators, but for the children, parents, grandparents, and every day law abiding citizens who continue to fight for change, often beating our collective heads against a seemingly impenetrable brick wall. Our country is grieving and we are fighting for change. We are fighting a ferocious monster that grows two new heads each time one is cut off. We fear for our children.

I am in no mood for insulting or gun supporting comments. So if that is all you have to offer, don’t stop here, just continue on your merry way. If you have suggestions for effective ways to combat this disease that has infected our country, I am open to suggestions my weary mind cannot yet see.

I know it is not enough to write about it or post about it. I just need to grieve then find a way to fight non-stop to change it.


32 thoughts on “My Nation’s Broken Heart – A Tough Read”

  1. I am with you on this Maggie, unbelievablely there is a mass shooting every day in the US only the big ones make the News! I have written a poem on my blog …watch the wall my darlings three times after separate school shootings. More children die from gun crime than car crashes in the U.S.
    Money is more important than children in the U.S. and yes I have been admolished for saying this!
    But Mr Trump and his NRA friends have actually said, yesterday, the answer to these tragedies is to arm more people yes more guns??? No one should have a gun in their home. I have said this so often.
    Thank God for good people like you..
    God help you, you are in the minority. God Help America the NRA will not.
    Take heart Maggie.💜💜

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  2. Such a heartbreaking occurrence and it happens every other day. Everyone should unite to raise their voices against this abuse. Guns should NOT be sold without a check and a license

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  3. My heart is heavy with all the bull being stated by gun lovers. Look at those children and tell me again why anyone needs an assault rifle. It makes me physically and emotionally sick.

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  4. Fine pot, Maggie. One that I read several times.
    When, when the gun violence stop? There’s been enough ‘thoughts and prayers’. We need positive action! But again all we are offered are ‘thoughts and prayers’.

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  5. Such hypocrisy from those in “leadership.” Here we are still grieving the first graders gunned down in a town near by a few years ago. Guns kill people. No one needs an automatic rifle.

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  6. I have no answers, only questions, and these have been asked so many times by so many people. If I could curse each individual who thinks it is a good idea that anyone should have a gun, I would. May common sense eventually prevail. 🤗🤗


  7. My thoughts on the gun control situation in your country are well-known, and often written about on my blog. I can honestly see no answer. Your country already has more guns than people, (393,000,000 privately-owned firearms) and a staggering 6,000,000 more have been bought in America since January 2022 alone. The stark truth is that it is never going to stop.
    Best wishes, Pete.

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    1. Totally eliminating guns is a big undertaking, but much can be done to lessen the chances of this happening yet again. We need effective and common sense legislators which does not exist now.

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  8. I agree with all you’ve said here. We live in a culture steeped in violence, perpetuated by greedy politicians. It makes me sad and angry. What a country…

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  9. Thank you for this post, Maggie. That news was beyond sad. The news that has come out about law enforcement officers waiting outside while more children died has turned sadness into anger. I hope something can be done. I’ve heard all the arguments, but something has to be done (and it doesn’t involve arming teachers, in my opinion).

    On anther note: I got an email alert for your one-liner Wednesday post, but I hadn’t gotten one in a while. I assumed you were on vacation or taking a break. I’m signing up again, just in case. I’ll catch up in a bit.

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    1. Thanks, Dan. I have had a difficult time writing with all the sadness going on. Maybe I’ve been mourning. We had a shooting in downtown Charleston on Memorial Day. 10 people shot. That is getting too close to my family. I do not have the answers but I refuse to believe there are none.

      I am hoping I am back on track again with my writing. Thanks for the comment.

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      1. There have been more shootings than days this year. So the politicians who say “now is not the time” are effectively saying “there will never be an appropriate time.” I, too, refuse to believe that.


  10. I am so sorry to read this Maggie (I did sent a response to this at the point I originally read it but I fear a laptop update interrupted it’s upload). What a heart felt, heart breaking read, as is it a truly heart breaking situation – as a family from another part of the world, I can assure you this tragedy is felt far and wide and our hearts truly go out to everyone effected by and mourning this horrific news. Sending love x

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