Day 197
I did not meditate this morning. I had a rough night and did not sleep well, so I slept in rather than getting up to meditate. It was a struggle for me to give this time up, but I knew I needed to sleep. But still, I struggled.
This week I started getting up an hour earlier to meditate, then go for my daily walk before coffee and breakfast. It really is helping me. Someone asked me what happens when I meditate. That’s a tricky question to answer because sometimes nothing happens. Sometimes it is just the most blissful and refreshing part of the day. Sometimes I feel as if I am not even present. Sometimes my brain wants to show me something that makes absolutely no sense. I have learned to just see it, acknowledge it, and then let it pass.
Meditation gives me the ability to start my day with a clear and open mind. I have noticed the absence of stress-related aches and pains. I do not spend the day worrying about things.
So, today was different. My sister would say I was discombobulated. I was off. I was really surprised at the difference between this day and the days I start with meditation. And I love that.
I do not feel the need to forgive myself, because I did nothing wrong. The old me loved to find any reason at all to beat myself up. Today I slept instead of meditating. I missed it. The only thing to do is just dust myself off and pick it up again tomorrow.
I did spend some time outside which is a meditation for me. The forecast is for more damaging winds and storms tomorrow, so getting outside today was good for me. It grounds me and connects me to the earth in a way that nothing else does. I never tire of breathing in the air and just being present in nature. This is home.
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Thank you so much! How kind of you. I am honored!
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So true – a bit of fresh air is good for the soul.
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It is so refreshing to just be in nature, even if for a brief moment.
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I hope you have a peaceful night and can resume your meditation tomorrow.
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Thank you, Nancy. I did meditate this morning and I can already feel a difference.
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Most of my days have been discombobulated lately. I get that. We need to take care of ourselves the best we can. I too love being outside. Sleep as needed my friend. It is retirement time.
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I managed to sleep well last night and got my morning meditation in. I put the bird feeders out and now I am enjoying my coffee, watching it rain.
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You always deserve some slack from you. You’re one of your best customers.
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Yes for getting outside. Yes.
Hope you get good sleep 🙂
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I have those times too, Maggie, when I think of meditating. I like to meditate too, and sometimes I can just do it better outside in my little garden, or going for a walk to the canyon nearby. And like you, I don’t take any blame for it. I have my feeling good days and those where body parts or brain parts don’t want to work so well. Perhaps like you, I am just tired. And having made it to 77, and having gone through cancer surgery, I give myself the right to be tired at times. I think meditation works better when there is never punishment involved. We are human first and foremost.
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Anne, thanks for sharing your perspective. I agree, we must allow our bodies to heal and as long as we can reap the benefit of meditation in the garden or on a walk, why not?
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